Author Topic: FYI Guys. Official Away and Returned thread. (Read 7496 times)

Kensei-Teichou · « **on:** March 02, 2010, 07:22:20 PM »

[admin]I've decided to hijack this thread and make it the official "I'm not going to be around so much for a bit thread". So, if you're going to be away for a while, for whatever reason, post it here![/admin]

   Well, as you can guys see, I've not wrote anything for a month or more. There are reasons behind that and I think you guys ought to know... (Warning. Vulgar language will appear in the below passage.)

   I've had to deal with a lot of shit right now. Family, friends, myself. My family have shut themselves off to me, so I hate going home; I'll try to find any excuse to get out. They blame me for every single fucking thing that goes wrong. I'll get the blame for fighting with my brother, even though he started it. (Sounds childish, but it's true. He just winds me up the majority of the time with his sarcastic comments... Which pushes me over the edge).
   My friends have changed. I've lost some and gained some. Myself...you do not wanna fucking go there.
   I'm seriously emotional right now. I'll be either pissed off or upset about something. People have taken my feelings and messed me around. My head is a fucking mess.
   I'm going to see if I can get help from the school counsellor, Anita. I was talking to a friend, and he said that I show all the signs of Borderline Personality Disorder. I just hope to God I don't have it. But because of all of this shit going on, I'm not myself. Fuck, I've not been myself since July last year...
   I'll keep you guys updated about what's happening if I can... Just, if I snap at you or act cold, I don't mean it.
   Thanks guys...

Burningplain · « **Reply #1 on:** March 02, 2010, 08:24:26 PM »

Sounds like we are in the same fucking boat, have to say it's a boat I don't want to be on, fucking thing is going nowhere except port fuckedinthehead and Port Dispair. If you need someone to talk to, PM me, or alternatively PM me and ask for my email. I'll listen, it just so happens that I can't talk about my shit because that's how I work. Still As I said; if you want to talk about it, you know who I am.

Chinaren · « **Reply #2 on:** March 02, 2010, 11:08:10 PM »

Well, get good soon guys. I can sympathize, believe me.

Phang · « **Reply #3 on:** March 04, 2010, 06:25:33 PM »

Hey, can I be miserable too?

Burningplain · « **Reply #4 on:** March 04, 2010, 07:17:30 PM »

Sure, misery loves company.

Kensei-Teichou · « **Reply #5 on:** March 04, 2010, 07:47:28 PM »

Thanks BP. I probably will end up PMing you

it's who I am.
Everyone I know at school though, like most of my friends, are quite down at the moment, so that affects my mood too. It's almost like I'm absorbing people's emotions...

Kensei-Teichou · « **Reply #6 on:** March 05, 2010, 08:55:46 PM »

We have an update on what's happening guys.

My dad has been snapping at me all week. Now I'm just getting sick of it. It's getting to the point where I'm standing outside at 4am with my bags packed, ready to fucking leave. But some reason there is something keeping me here. I think I just don't have the courage to leave this hell. I keep thinking that my parents will track me down.
Being played isn't the nicest of feelings, and now I just want to take his smug little fucking face and smash it into a wall. He says "What's your problem?" ... Is it not fucking obvious?! I am so so so sick of being led on, then being dropped like a tonne of bricks. Fuck it. Fuck it all.

Burningplain · « **Reply #7 on:** March 05, 2010, 09:41:45 PM »

We'll get you through this Kensei. We're here. Talk to us.

NicTei · « **Reply #8 on:** March 05, 2010, 11:33:27 PM »

...am I the only one mildly amused by how his life is falling apart before his eyes?

Chinaren · « **Reply #9 on:** March 06, 2010, 01:29:17 AM »

I've also 'fallen off the wagon' lately, but I hope to be climbing back aboard and starting up things again. Everyone goes through these periods from time to time. Unfortunately.

Kensei-Teichou · « **Reply #10 on:** March 06, 2010, 08:11:20 PM »

Quote from: Chinaren link=topic=1711.msg21869#msg21869 date=1267838957

... Everyone goes through these periods from time to time. Unfortunately.

...This period of time has lasted four years, C'Ren. I'm struggling to cope now.

Chinaren · « **Reply #11 on:** March 07, 2010, 12:40:24 AM »

I suggest dying your hair purple. That has to help.

Burningplain · « **Reply #12 on:** March 08, 2010, 07:04:55 PM »

She already did.

Kensei-Teichou · « **Reply #13 on:** March 08, 2010, 09:20:08 PM »

Yeah. The hair's short and purple now. I'll take a picture later and put it up.

We have another development.
I thought my mom was the good one. Ya know, like good cop bad cop. Apparently not. My music exam is on friday and I've been practicing guitar so much that my fingers were bleeding tonight. Yet, she still shouts at me and shit. I don't need this! I was in pain, and her shouting at me doesn't help in the slightest.
Not only that, even though I blatantly told Scott to stay away from me and that I was forgetting him, he's constantly texting me, asking if he can get a hug tomorrow.
Eugh.
Enough's enough.
My temper has gone.
If I'm not on for a few days, means that I'm too busy.

Chinaren · « **Reply #14 on:** March 09, 2010, 12:56:46 PM »

FYI I've been distracted again in RL, so that's why I've not been on much lately. Hopefully I'll be back full time soonest.

Kensei-Teichou · « **Reply #15 on:** March 09, 2010, 07:12:37 PM »

RL? ... *tilts head*

Burningplain · « **Reply #16 on:** March 09, 2010, 07:17:04 PM »

Yeah, not a fun place to be Kensei.
@Chinaren: What is RL?

Chinaren · « **Reply #17 on:** March 09, 2010, 10:53:14 PM »

Real Life.

Though the definition of Real Life may vary.

Kensei-Teichou · « **Reply #18 on:** March 10, 2010, 08:06:22 PM »

I get ya now.

Kensei-Teichou · « **Reply #19 on:** March 10, 2010, 10:37:32 PM »

Update;

I have my music exam on Friday.

i am actually shitting myself.

Kensei-Teichou · « **Reply #20 on:** March 12, 2010, 08:59:01 PM »

Well...
I had my music exam today... It actually went really damn well!
On the downside, my sleep has gone down to a maximum of four hours a night... brilliant. Out of six nights, I've had a total of 4 each night. I'm always shattered and the slightest thing will set me off now. Say the wrong thing and I will get pissed.

Burningplain · « **Reply #21 on:** March 12, 2010, 09:42:03 PM »

So what do you do then? You sleep all weekend. How do you think the music exam went?

Kensei-Teichou · « **Reply #22 on:** March 12, 2010, 10:38:13 PM »

Music was okay. I only mucked up one bar of 'Pretty Woman' on guitar.

And I can't sleep all weekend. I have to get up early tomorrow to go shopping...

NicTei · « **Reply #23 on:** March 12, 2010, 11:19:45 PM »

Are you friggin' serious? You're playing 'Pretty Woman'!? SWEET!! My quartet has to do that song tomorrow for a Pageant of Hope thing that we got roped into.

I mean, volunteered for. Against our wills.

In all seriousness, we volunteered. At gunpoint.

Seriously, it was our decision. That's what they told us, anyways.

Panda-Brain · « **Reply #24 on:** March 13, 2010, 02:24:13 PM »

Ahh, Nic.
Always the comedian

Kensei-Teichou · « **Reply #25 on:** March 13, 2010, 02:47:49 PM »

I played Pretty Woman. The next person that asks me to play it will get a biiiiig slap. I hate that song so fricking much.

Chinaren · « **Reply #26 on:** May 10, 2010, 12:50:55 PM »

I'm not away as such, but RL is keeping me busy just atm. I'll be around, but my writing speed is suffering atm.

Panda-Brain · « **Reply #27 on:** May 15, 2010, 01:07:53 AM »

Firstly; Google tagged: 8203?

Secondly; I'm not really "away" as such, but I occasionally have little downers where I can't be bothered with anyone or anything. So if I disappear and don't post for a few days, I'll be back. I'll always come back. I wont be away any longer than 2-3 days though

Angel · « **Reply #28 on:** July 18, 2010, 11:29:05 PM »

All riiiiiiiiiiiiight! Read the i's as a long extended 'e' sound. All Jordy like.

IS that how you spell that?

Anyhows I'm away camping for 11 days on the beautiful west coast of Scotland at the wondrous campsite by Blair Castle in Pitlochry. Off to the Blair Atholl Jamborette, it's a scouting thing btw and I canny actually wait. 4000 odd folk, half of them being foreign from 16/17 different countries, bring it on. Added to that we have some of them as homestays for 5 or 6 day afterwards so don't expect much for about 2 or 3 weeks.

Ma mammy says that so long as the folk are normal, aren't scared of cats and will eat anything then we should be fine.

I put it as so long as they roll the same way as I do then it'll be a blast.

See y'all on the flipside! xD

Chinaren · « **Reply #29 on:** July 18, 2010, 11:56:21 PM »

Have a good holiiiiiiiday Angel.

Tome City · « **Reply #29 on:** July 18, 2010, 11:56:21 PM »

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